Jessica's long journey

my heart does crying

2010-02-15T03:12:00.000-08:00

i do feel like crying after all..the one that u trust will never be yours..
i keep saying to myself,resist the pain he gave..
words wont be enough..
it really does hurt alot..stupid stupid..

sincerity wont change them,it's just their natural behaviour..
i thought as u fill up my day,it will erase my past .. Make me feels what real happiness is..

when u said,trust me for every single words i said..Time will prove everything..
I do believe with u..really really do..

By why?
Have u realized u have just added another scar that hasnt vanished at all?
im tired of everything..
im really sick of relationship..
It has never worked out like what i have been dreaming about..
I still remember all the things u said..
I Hav doubt,but giving my self a second change wont hurt that much..
The truth is kinda different..
it does hurt alot

please let me go away..
or else,u leave me alone..
teach me how cruel the world is
i dont wanna be an emo for the second time..
please..

valentine's story

2010-02-14T21:13:00.000-08:00

Yesterday is the best valentine ever..Im super happy now,although just before i thought this valentine gonna be the end of everything..i made a plan to forget him and spend my days as usual,by having no one and nothing special..
i made him my hand made suprise which might means nothing at all to everybody,but that's everything that i can give to him..my heart is almost coming out..he played me a song with his quitar..that was the best one ever,and im touched..
Thats just one of my biggest dream of having someone to do that for me,even it's just ordinary thing for some people..kinda romantic i guess ,just when he said,it's only for me..
I trust u now boy =)

i spent my valentine with my buddies,Vincent and his bro..We went to bondi and had Kelly's for our lunch place..after that he drove me home..
Then at night i join my flatmate for dinner at haymarket chinese restaurant and i went karaoke with grace ricco n fandi..nice day huh?
it was the best day because i have u inside =))

PS.i also get a bigggg dog..i mean,a biggg doll..haha..thx..i do appreciate it..
it's a beautiful valentine,isnt it?? =D

2010,February

2010-02-06T19:46:00.000-08:00

hello mello..i know this is a dead blog..
It's just that im too bored and wanna talk lots of things but dunno to whom should i say all of this..
well valentine is around the corner,things change a lil bit,not much..lol

single might be the best for some people,sometimes i do agree with this statement but u will never know what is happiness until u can find someone to share it with.
i might spend my v day with my friends but one of my fellaz has taken!! LOL..
my best buddy here,i think i need to find the other to spend my day..haha
college has been started since a week,and i dont really enjoy them..things havent changed at all,boring..

err,actually there's a diff in my life now..Someone comes again,and i dont know what to do,how to act and it's just complicated..trusting is kinda hard..
i keep telling my self,things might be change .. whatever good things u have done,will come back to u one day.and same with this,i expect this kind of stuff.. Hope he can keep his words.. because if u cant, u should know what kind of good job have u done..I might wont be able to do anything , i give u my trust,hoping that u will take a good care of it..

And if u dont,this will only be one of the worst chapter in my life like it used to be..no big drama man..
cao..

another chapter..

2009-09-04T10:04:00.000-07:00

time goes on and perfect timing to say good bye

Things happened for a reason,and being so rude,

i have my own reason to do so..

i might a bad person and ruin your life

hate me if u wanna do so,but please dont put burden on me

what do u expect from someone who cant even take a good care of her self?

please,find your new life,and get rid of the nightmare.

let by gone be by gone

2009-06-24T07:28:00.000-07:00

another sad day which i cant deny.

done with everything..i really cant make a decision which is good and it comes out to be a goodbye word.

confused with everything and i cant think alright , not a good pretender though.not sure what ive done this week..really dunno..i hope tomorrow gonna be alrite..gonna do shopping alone..i wanna dress up a bit like what i used to do..hahahaa...

im happy today,that all of us pass the exam which is opera gateau and i found out the theory test is super easy..ehehehe... so,yea actually it was a good day after losing my toolkits which are so expensive..shit..

emm this week we made cookies...so full of it now..ill giv them all to my friends tomorrow..hope they will enjoy it..=)

i need a person who can understand how i feel,know what i want,and the one i love..but who are u? im not sure..

still blur..

hmm...dun think too much..everything will just be fine. feel sorry for someone ..

bye..n nite

supposed to study..duh!

2009-06-20T01:31:00.000-07:00

actually i need to study and make work flow for monday and tuesday..

Monday we will be making opera gateau which i think a deg2an lesson..because im afraid i cant make a good chocolate glaze which we cant do anything if making a mistake..

i miss my boy

kaga ngerti org kangen...T_T

biarin ahhh..

SKIPPPP it..

emm...today i bought greentea nougat and original crunchy nougat..hahahaha...feeling like wanna hav sth at home...that's for my dinner..lol

well

after making this blog,ill go study..should do that

why ohhh whyyyy

me become so lazy these days...cant think better and cant do anythingggg...beh beh beh

need to change..and hav to kill the super malas behaviour during winter

andddd guess whattt...ill go back to medan soon..hihi...3 july is coming..cant wait dearrrr...

2 weeks to go and ill meet my family and friends.. tell them a good news from me =P

cao...need to study first...^^

daaagh

heart attack news

2009-06-12T04:32:00.000-07:00

today,im not feeling good.. upset with the big news he gave to me...

hope it's not the truth..you will be alrite...

good luck keep coming

bad luck go away!!!!

okay okay okay??? =)

trust me and everything gonna be fine..let's hope for the best tomorrow~~~!!!!

what a day haih...

A cold sunday feeling

2009-05-30T20:12:00.000-07:00

feeling like making a poem =)

First time meeting each other,

that was the sweetest thing happened in my life

rain drop sounds like our heart beat

keep beating all the day without knowing how to stop

Past might be the hardest part of all

when i looked back, they are still holding hands together making a promise over a palm tree

saying that nothing gonna change till the end of the time

tears,falling apart from her face knowing it will always be a promise that has ended

Lets just face the truth that you have gone forever

And let the sunshine bring it down from the earth and never appear

since, you and me

will never have a happy ending

Stars that shined my way,leaving the place they should be

moon that should appear,closed by the dark cloud

it just means, our future will forever never come true

2009-05-29T19:26:00.000-07:00

Last saturday i was shocked because of sth and stay awake til 5...pssstt dont tell anyone include my bro...otherwise he will kill me when i come back this july..LOL

and another shocking news from someone...ahh just skip it..

Gosh im super sleepy though i woke up ard 12...tonight i need to sleep earlier otherwise i wont be able to sleep fast this sunday...yeyyy next week will be making bread..means will hav a lot of yummy food...heheehe...well im a bread person so im so happy with that but most of my friend hate bread...it's yummy!!

if only i can look through people's heart then that might be more simple..rite?

just dont trust them easily..couldnt agree more..peace..=)

cy..ttyl

(what am i goin to do today?hav another sleep might be?)

yes for sure...im bored...haiz..

but not feeling lyk goin out..

daaaagh

Dedicated to??

2009-05-29T06:50:00.000-07:00

我们的纪念 - 李雅微 (My Lucky Star OST)
Wo men de ji nian - Li Ya Wei
Our Commemoration – Shivia Lee

數不盡的淚我又哭了好幾回
shu bu jin de lei wo you ku le hao ji hui
Endless tears, I cried another couple times
幻化成蝶停留在這片落葉
huan hua cheng die ting liu zai zhe pian luo ye
Transformed into a butterfly stopping on top of this falling leaf
被風化的雪埋藏在千年以前
bei feng hua de xue mai cang zai qian li yi qian
The wind-swept snow had been buried thousand years ago
我用盡一生的思念只為等著你出現
wo yong jin yi sheng de si nian zhi wei deng zhe ni chu xian
I used up a lifetime of longing just waiting for you to appear

回憶漸漸凋謝落在我身邊
hui yi jian jian diao xie luo zai wo shen bian
Memories began to wither around me
喚不醒原來還跳動的畫面
huan bu xing yuan lai hai tiao dong de hua mian
Couldn’t revive the picture that was moving before

就讓我留在輪迴的邊緣
jiu rang wo liu zai lun hui de bian yuan
Let us stay on the side line of reincarnation
等一道光線
deng yi dao guang xian
Waiting for a stream of light
看見某年某月我們之間
kan jian mo nian mo yue wo men zhi jian
To peer into the time when we
曾經說過的預言
ceng jing shuo guo de yu yan
Made a prediction
就讓它帶走你的那瞬間
jiu rang ta dai zou ni de na xun jian
Let it take away that moment of yours
成為我們的紀念
cheng wei wo men de ji nian
Making it our commemoration
誰能發現我的世界曾經有過你的臉
shui neng fa xian wo de shi jie ceng jing you guo ni de lian
Who would notice that my world had your face once upon a time?

FEELING SLEEPY

2009-05-28T18:50:00.000-07:00

APPLE STRUDEL

BAKLAVA

HOT CROSS BUN

MY DANISH PASTRY
Another boring day,

emm actually almost everyday except my school time is boring..

here dunno what to do , i miss everything in medan...i hav

lots of friend who can understand me and make me feel happy most of the time.Sometimes i feel jealous with them who hav a uni life,lots of friend,busy day at uni, and actually a very very busy day.

I always ended up my weekend by staying at home,ol,listening music or mayb alone..

mayb i need to find a job here, i want to hav sth different here.Life is really too easy for me here and i hav nothing to do with it.

let me share sth i got on my bday.

many people remember my bday and im so happy with that...Long lost fellaz,in fact they are still my friends =)

Vergie who called me on the middle of the night,christy

who gav me a box of lindt chocolate and ivaaaaaaaa celebrated my bday together im our small room together. =)

i dunno im supposed to be happy or not.. well i cant list everybody who said happy bday for me..but im so happy yet so sad..

i dun need to tell y why,but some of them just dont remember bout that,though all of us hav been knowing each other for such a long time..=(

thx to someone out there who gave me strength and tell me that he will celebrate my bday and giv it a blast...im happier too hear that..

well 1 month to go and im going home soon..hehehee...soo interested with that,im goin to see my family and friends soon..the one who really care for me yayyyy >.<

this few days i keep listening to old song which i hav ever

been ever addicted to,our memories or it's called wo men de ji nian..it is an OST of a taiwanese drama,and i love it so much...hehehee

i cant remember how many times i shed my tear when watching that...hahaha..silly yet touching,,,in that drama,she was given 11 flowers or maybe 101??? i cant remember but that means forever love or true love..that's too sweet andddd the guy sang a song for her..haahaha...

i wanna watch that again..gonna download it again hehhehe....

emm..last moday at school i made hot cross bun and bakl

ava

me,personally i dont like baklava...too sweet for meeee...=.=

hot cross bun is yummy,im planning to bake it at medan for my mom and teach her how to make a good wholemeal bread so she can bake it for my dad heheehe

on the second day we made apple strudel with chef Angelo..

he's one of my favourite chef...

He's a very good chef and very kind...=)

the apple strudel was okay,and still in my fridge hahah...

then on the third day we made danish pastry anddddd they are sooo yummy because chef from denmark,chef gert taught us how to make a good danish..hahha...he's like a santa claus for me...

or mayb like a grandfather because of his appearance...sooooo kind of chef...hahhhahhaa

butttt he stole my strawberries last time...but he still said it's sour nooo that's sweet chef.

He said he will come back to my bench to eat more =.=

hahahaha..he's super funny..

i love all the chef and all the product we made..

the lessons are just perfect =)

im planning to continue my course til finish and just do it here first ..otherwise tooooooo confusing to change place again.

hope i get a lot of friends here,and i hav just got 1 few days ago =)

night markettttttt todayyyy...hehehhee...im coming...alone maybe?ehhh...nahhh no worries..u can do it just try to be independent..hahahha...

cyaaa

sunday im in love...HAHHAHA

2009-05-17T06:01:00.000-07:00

today i went to a Japanese restaurant...super super hungry because i only ate small slice of linzer torte for breakfast and skipped lunch =(

then about 6 PM me and iva went to takumi to hav sushiiiii...=)

but dunno why im not so satisfied this time...they ran out of soft shell crab which is one of my favourite!argh

then i only had grilled salmon , hamberg sushi,and cheese chicken katsu sushi =(

not full enough..

I went home and cooked for tomorrow's lunch...hheheheheh

emmm i stirfried cabbage and beef blackpepper...it tastes good..>.<

Ps.Im in love with boys before flower...aka yi jung...HAHAHHAHAAH...gosh he's just to cute...

hav a sweet dream!

Saturday , at home

2009-05-16T04:49:00.000-07:00

today i chat with my ex-miss from Australia Centre..Miss Jessica...

she asked me to bake something for her on this July when i go home...

sure why not??i miss our ielts morning class,me,vergie,sate,and felicia hhhahahahahaa

we always feel very frustated that we wont be able to pass ielts because it will be soooo hard..but guess wat?all passed ielts with high score...=)

im thinking to bake chocolate noir for them later when i get home and some other petit fours which will be super cute...anyway,im not a super talented student in my class but i giv all my passion and heart to things what i will be making =)

i love the things which will be my future job

i love the way how i knead the dough(insane hah?)=P

it's just super weird if u notice,i can smile in the kitchen without reason when makin sth...

ahh....now im in intermediate patisserie and will finish superior on this september...really dunno what kind of decision should i choose? go to melbourne and start working in laurent?(hope i can get that job) and change to William Angliss?

sooooooo confused...but that might be good for me,i dont really like sydney and for me sydney is so boring,...lifeless...but i really wanna wear lcb's uniform...i think it's pretty cute and cool..hahahahaahah

but hey it shouldnt be the reason for me to confuse..hahahahaa

im super happy and cant wait for next week...next week we will be makin plated dessert..decorating decoratingggggggg...hiyaaa..alot of fun =)

i have a dream that one day i can go to CIA culinary institute of america...

somehow,it's too far,expensive,anddddddd the entry requirements are superrrrrr tough!

but , one day if i make a good earning and success in this job,CIA will be waiting for meee...im cominggggggggg ...hahahahaa

well i need to continue reading my book...it's a really good book( on baking)

i loveeeee this book..might buy it later =)

cya..hav a good night..

First blog =)

2009-05-16T03:29:00.000-07:00

From now,i will spend my boring day by writing some information about my self in sydney.A long journey for becoming a good pastry chef..

Keep reading if u want =)

Ps:i dont like sydney

let's move to melbourne!