my heart does crying

i do feel like crying after all..the one that u trust will never be yours..
i keep saying to myself,resist the pain he gave..
words wont be enough..
it really does hurt alot..stupid stupid..

sincerity wont change them,it's just their natural behaviour..
i thought as u fill up my day,it will erase my past .. Make me feels what real happiness is..

when u said,trust me for every single words i said..Time will prove everything..
I do believe with u..really really do..

By why?
Have u realized u have just added another scar that hasnt vanished at all?
im tired of everything..
im really sick of relationship..
It has never worked out like what i have been dreaming about..
I still remember all the things u said..
I Hav doubt,but giving my self a second change wont hurt that much..
The truth is kinda different..
it does hurt alot

please let me go away..
or else,u leave me alone..
teach me how cruel the world is
i dont wanna be an emo for the second time..
please..

valentine's story

Yesterday is the best valentine ever..Im super happy now,although just before i thought this valentine gonna be the end of everything..i made a plan to forget him and spend my days as usual,by having no one and nothing special..
i made him my hand made suprise which might means nothing at all to everybody,but that's everything that i can give to him..my heart is almost coming out..he played me a song with his quitar..that was the best one ever,and im touched..
Thats just one of my biggest dream of having someone to do that for me,even it's just ordinary thing for some people..kinda romantic i guess ,just when he said,it's only for me..
I trust u now boy =)

i spent my valentine with my buddies,Vincent and his bro..We went to bondi and had Kelly's for our lunch place..after that he drove me home..
Then at night i join my flatmate for dinner at haymarket chinese restaurant and i went karaoke with grace ricco n fandi..nice day huh?
it was the best day because i have u inside =))

PS.i also get a bigggg dog..i mean,a biggg doll..haha..thx..i do appreciate it..
it's a beautiful valentine,isnt it?? =D

2010,February

hello mello..i know this is a dead blog..
It's just that im too bored and wanna talk lots of things but dunno to whom should i say all of this..
well valentine is around the corner,things change a lil bit,not much..lol

single might be the best for some people,sometimes i do agree with this statement but u will never know what is happiness until u can find someone to share it with.
i might spend my v day with my friends but one of my fellaz has taken!! LOL..
my best buddy here,i think i need to find the other to spend my day..haha
college has been started since a week,and i dont really enjoy them..things havent changed at all,boring..

err,actually there's a diff in my life now..Someone comes again,and i dont know what to do,how to act and it's just complicated..trusting is kinda hard..
i keep telling my self,things might be change .. whatever good things u have done,will come back to u one day.and same with this,i expect this kind of stuff.. Hope he can keep his words.. because if u cant, u should know what kind of good job have u done..I might wont be able to do anything , i give u my trust,hoping that u will take a good care of it..

And if u dont,this will only be one of the worst chapter in my life like it used to be..no big drama man..
cao..

another chapter..

time goes on and perfect timing to say good bye

Things happened for a reason,and being so rude,

i have my own reason to do so..

i might a bad person and ruin your life

hate me if u wanna do so,but please dont put burden on me

what do u expect from someone who cant even take a good care of her self?

please,find your new life,and get rid of the nightmare.

let by gone be by gone

another sad day which i cant deny.

done with everything..i really cant make a decision which is good and it comes out to be a goodbye word.

confused with everything and i cant think alright , not a good pretender though.not sure what ive done this week..really dunno..i hope tomorrow gonna be alrite..gonna do shopping alone..i wanna dress up a bit like what i used to do..hahahaa...

im happy today,that all of us pass the exam which is opera gateau and i found out the theory test is super easy..ehehehe... so,yea actually it was a good day after losing my toolkits which are so expensive..shit..

emm this week we made cookies...so full of it now..ill giv them all to my friends tomorrow..hope they will enjoy it..=)

i need a person who can understand how i feel,know what i want,and the one i love..but who are u? im not sure..

still blur..

hmm...dun think too much..everything will just be fine. feel sorry for someone ..

bye..n nite

supposed to study..duh!

actually i need to study and make work flow for monday and tuesday..

Monday we will be making opera gateau which i think a deg2an lesson..because im afraid i cant make a good chocolate glaze which we cant do anything if making a mistake..

i miss my boy

kaga ngerti org kangen...T_T

biarin ahhh..

SKIPPPP it..

emm...today i bought greentea nougat and original crunchy nougat..hahahaha...feeling like wanna hav sth at home...that's for my dinner..lol

well

after making this blog,ill go study..should do that

why ohhh whyyyy

me become so lazy these days...cant think better and cant do anythingggg...beh beh beh

need to change..and hav to kill the super malas behaviour during winter

andddd guess whattt...ill go back to medan soon..hihi...3 july is coming..cant wait dearrrr...

2 weeks to go and ill meet my family and friends.. tell them a good news from me =P

cao...need to study first...^^

daaagh

heart attack news

today,im not feeling good.. upset with the big news he gave to me...

hope it's not the truth..you will be alrite...

good luck keep coming

bad luck go away!!!!

okay okay okay??? =)

trust me and everything gonna be fine..let's hope for the best tomorrow~~~!!!!

what a day haih...